Music And My Soul

I love music. All kinds of music. But it's more than the sound of the music that I love. It's the Feeling that a song gives me that I adore. The feeling I get when I hear a song for the first time and it takes my breath away and brings tears to my eyes because the words coming from the speakers appear to have been written just for me.

Obviously this doesn't happen all the time. I don't feel this kind of connection with all the songs I hear but when I do, it's very powerful! I think music is almost as meaningful as certain smells. The way a familiar melody can ignite a spark that thrusts my mind into a trip down memory lane. For example, Somebody by Depeche Mode is a song full of happy memories for me. While dressing in my wedding gown the day I married my husband my Maid of Honor brings in a CD and tells me that my future husband wants me to play this particular song. It was so beautiful and special and every time I hear that song I flash back to that church, that moment and relive it once again.

I can think of a thousand other examples of songs and how closely they relate to special events in my past. But the one that is on my mind today is Whatever You're Doing by Sanctus Real. This song is fairly new so it's not exactly tied to a memory at this moment but the words continue to speak clearly to my heart and soul.



My husband and I have endured a very difficult time in our marriage recently and just this past Saturday evening I finally felt the stress lift from our relationship and we were able to enjoy being together as a couple. So the first lines of this song really speak to that part of my life right now.

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
But I'm giving into something Heavenly

As some of you know my husband was involved in a wreck a couple of weeks ago. Thanks be to God that he was not seriously hurt and our children were not with him! However our van was totalled and it has been extremely stressful dealing with the insurance company and all that is involved with resolving the matter. In the midst of dealing with this my oldest son went to visit his father for the week. He doesn't see him very often so it's hard on me when he is gone and I find myself constantly worrying about him. This was also his first time to fly down there without an adult and while the common sense side of me knows that flying is safer that driving statistically I am a mom and my heart usually wins and I worry. He arrived back home safe, sound, and I could swear two inches taller! On top of all of this I am also looking at some possible changes to my current employment situation. Of course the change would bring some other big changes to our family and how it operates on a daily basis. So, the rest of the song lyrics speak just as clearly to me.

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...To...
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like Chaos but somehow there's peace
And though It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
I'm giving into something Heavenly
Something Heavenly
Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly
It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breath in and let everything out

With all of this chaos going on I find that when all is silent and my heart is speaking to God's that I have an unexplainable inner peace about all that has transpired. I know that He is working in my heart and on my family. I know that His will is what will be done and I will be once again eternally grateful for His wisdom and guidance for He has brought me this far.

So, what are some of your special Musical Moments?